Ive gone about…idk…a month without a comment about why am I alive, I should kill myself, go die…and today, that ended. Wee. Im at this group, and Im talking to these two boys. Then, one of them is like, omg, your so ugly, Why are you even alive. And I say….cause I was born.
It just kind of hit me. When people say this to me on a daily basis, I live with it. Sometimes I believe them, sometimes I dont. But, this hasnt happened in a while. So, I thought, maybe Im getting better? Maybe people like me? And then, bam…I just kind of, spaced out, and thought, back to square one. So, yea. That was my night.